Monday, April 19, 2010

Coleton

You know whats incredibly frustrating? Little brothers that make my mom cry. If I may speak freely about how I think hopefully you'll understand. My brother since he turned 18 feels that he is now granted the right to be an angry ungrateful jerk, my parents have been walking on eggshells trying to understand what his problem is. I took him to dinner Thursday night hoping that he would relax and maybe tell me why he is so upset all of the sudden and of course he wont open up, I'm not 18 i don't understand. We were all wondering if he had done something bad or wrong and he was feeling guilty and doesn't want to talk but the more and more i talk or am around him i don't think that is the case, although he would love to find someone to get him in trouble and prove that he is in fact his own person and can do stupid stuff all on his own. He wants to move out of the house and i totally understand that feeling but he doesn't need to be such a jerk to the people who gave him life. He thinks he is going to go pierce his ears this week (like a little girl) what he doesn't understand is that i cant think of one "cool" white guy that has his ears pierced... honestly in the end they are all just creepy looking "use ta be's" that grew up and are scar'd from previous rebellion and stupidity. SO if he hasn't been doing drugs, hasn't been messing around with girls, hasn't been stealing things then what gives? The reason i think he is so backward is that he is 18 and Satan knows it and he is working really hard on getting him to mess up his whole young life. Coleton cant sleep, he cant find any peace, he cant talk to anyone who's been there done that, he's got it in his mind that were all hypocrites and liars when in fact he is just struggling against the biggest hypocrite and liar there ever was. We all want to take him down a dark ally and beat some sense into him but that's apparently not the best way to go about it (although I'd like to reason that it would be the quickest most effective way). I want to be his buddy and be able to know whats going on in his life so he doesn't cut ties with the whole fam, other than that i know that we'd all be open to suggestions... good grief.

3 comments:

Liv said...

That's frustrating. It's great that you're trying to help though. Even if Coleton isn't accepting it yet.

Kyle, Cassie and Kids said...

I know how hard it is but let me tell you my little bro went through a rough patch right when he was about 17 or 18. The best thing you can do is pray for them, be there friend, and let them know you love them. You may not agree with the decisions they are making or how they are acting however I always remember to be like Christ and what would Christ do in this situation? Well he would love them and be there no matter what, and not push them to do what is right but only lead by example! Well needless to say there is hope, my bro found his way back and is now serving his mission in Eugene, Oregon and is an amazing missionary and brother! I wish you the best of Luck, you'll probably need it!

Bonnie said...

Wow that's tough...
You will just have to let him go through this so he can learn and know for himself that he "needs" family. sooner or later he will realize that. It might me hard for the family to sit back and watch, but we are all put here for a reason and we are all being tested, so this will prove if he is strong enough to pass his test. My older sister has been our odd ball, and we just have to sit back and watch, cause if we try to talk to her, we push her away. If you need to talk let me know. Good luck with everything!