Honesty

Hey all, I want to tell you what this blog is to me. For the past 6 years it has been a way for me to share my family growing up, share a portion of my struggles including the good parts in my life and try to do so in the most honest fashion I can come up with. Its been like a journal or therapy to me, I don't have close girlfriends anymore that I can readily drop by and see, but I have family, friends and complete strangers that comment or just read what I've written and it gives me a sense of connectedness that I must be severely lacking. I really appreciate blogs that tell the good, bad, and the ugly, those people who share what life is really like and don't gloss over some of their struggles because we all have struggles and it helps to know that I'm not alone. Maybe you feel this way too, maybe you don't, I'm not telling you how you should feel. In this blog I don't pretend to walk on water, yes I am LDS and I do feel that it means I should stand for good things, but I'm not perfect, I speak my mind, I swear, I'm a bad mom at times, I have tuff relationships that can make me into a mean person. What I say gets interpreted in whatever way the reader feels like it should be interpreted, I try to express that I am mad or being sarcastic when I am to help the reader along, but they will generally choose their own tone for the whole thing. I am not writing for church publications, I am not smart enough to even be considered for such things. But the point is that I write my feelings, especially the ones that nag at me and I just can't get off my chest in any other way. If I didn't I would be extremely burdened down and would have a hard time getting past the seemingly small things that want to pull me under.