about nothing, and everything

So yesterday night was a horrible night and what got me past completely freaking out while I was cleaning Roy was composing what I would put on my blog in my head. It started out like hate mail and ended up more like reasonable collected anger, then I decided that I really didn't need to vent all of my frustration out because I had fake written it down and all was well. So blogging could definitely be therapy for the incredibly cheap or poor (in my case both). If you want to know an odd truth about me I have a journal that I have kept from when I was first married that I usually only write in when I am irate, on occasions it has real journal entry's but for the most part its just me writing down my bad days that I can't seem to get by. My poor posterity is gonna think I was a very upset/picked-on woman when they get a hold of it. Any way its early Monday morning (12:37) and I should be in bed but I had a nap and I'm wide eyed and bushy tailed, so I'll share my other night with you (censored and mild). Jared's math 1010 class will be over come this Saturday. He is close to being done but really not comfortably close enough, and I want to have a panic attack every time I think about it. So we "talked" some of it over yesterday and no matter what was said it was just too much for us to discuss it civilly. I'm signed up for math 1050 this coming semester and I was hoping to have Jared be my study partner in 1050 too, but that may not be. This class was a good $1300, and completely wiped out our savings :( so you may understand the freak show that was going on in my mind. I'll have to share how this week goes, all i know is that its not gonna be pretty or easy for anyone in this household. If you feel so inclined.. send us good thoughts or prayers that he gets through it, heaven knows he needs them.

A camping we did go

a lake we picnicked by were calling it Mirror Lake (its not)

Provo river falls, its really cool it looks like steps were cut out for the falls.

The boys by the falls

Makayla excited about the falls. Earlier she had told me that "dinosaurs live by water falls" just some food for thought...

on our attempted hike to castle lake this was just getting out of the car maybe 10 feet away, Makayla still has her backpack on which she insisted putting a rock in and the flowers she picked. A short time later both Jared and I got to wear the backpack. I think we made it two miles, it took at least an hour if not more to get 2 miles and it was hot. The lake was 4 miles away (good thing we gave up), Jared is still sore from it. oh and we took Pearl too, so it was like a traveling circus.

ready for marsh mellows

Yellow Pine Creek a short walk from our campground

Konnor in his harness

not sure about the face, i'm eating smores.

We went camping (obviously) over the 24th of July weekend at yellow pine which was plan b if there really was a real plan b. Plan A was to go to sunset campground up farmington canyon, but farmington canyon is still closed. So we headed toward the Uintas since in my camping book there were lots and lots of camp spots close together there and we would have a fighting chance of getting one. We arrived at yellow pine campground and fell in love with it because it is how I figure camping should look with mountains and tall shady pine trees. The campground had a vault toilet, picnic table and fire pit, no running water or drinking water. Drinking water was about 5 miles away at soapstone basin. Our whole bodies were filthy and our hands were all just gross in a matter of minutes and stayed that way for 3 days. I tried my hand at dutch oven cooking and... I need more practice. My chocolate cake turned out good, and after HOURS my dutch oven potatoes were good too but it was too little too late, my biscuits were okay... I'll get better if we ever muster up the courage to go camping again. Its tuff with two young kids. Jared and I did get some time alone at night looking at the stars and talking which was nice. Maybe in a couple days the kids will chalk it up as a good family memory, but even they need time. If you enjoy watching other peoples sub-par family videos please by all means watch ours and you can get a taste of camping with small children!!

Journal post

Its Sunday night and I'm finding myself trying to organize my thoughts about life and where I'm headed, and instead of being a normal person and writing it all down in a journal I'm typing it out here. Being as it doesn't involve anyone but me it's perfectly fine (under my own standards) if I post about it. We recently got to replace our van with a newer more expensive van, and are no longer debt free, but hey we've got a working car! The truck is currently parked at my parents because it broke down on the way there :(. Eventually we'll get it fixed and have 2 working cars!! Its amazing how blessed being absolutely normal really is. Jared is doing well at his new job in North Salt Lake, and so far we've come up with a tentative plan to live here for a year to test out the new job's stability and if all goes well then in a year we will sell our home and move closer to North Salt Lake. One of my closest friends and best running partner is moving far away in the coming weeks and I feel super sad about it all, but am so happy that everything is working out as planned for her cute little family. I will have to find a new running partner and confidant or I may go crazy... so, so, sad. I like the idea of moving myself, I'm pretty restless and pretty soon I'll have all the projects done in my home that I care to do and will need a new project. I should just start drawing or painting again, its just hard to find the time or space.. alone space. I've got one more semester (its seems) of school and I'm dreading the thought of math 1050, people pass it right? The other classes I'm praying will be a breeze, we'll see. Hey my birthday is coming up! I'll be a big 25 years.. ugh that seems old... what do people do when their 25? ... I guess I'm already doing it. Jared and I talked about how many kids were having on our little day trip today, he's still stuck on four.. tops.. I told him we will need a bigger vehicle when we come across 5 :), he said the only way were having 5 is if I were to have triplets, poor boy doesn't know that I may push him past 6, bigger is better right? heck yes. There is just something about seeing a family of 14 kids interact when they've all grown up, that makes you wish you were a part of something big.