So today i was met with a proposition from a lady in my ward. There is a Salon in Bountiful that really needs stylists otherwise it will have to close its doors. This particular salon also has a daycare attached to it. Curently my own schedule is that I work from my home salon tuesday nights and Saturday Days, this used to be during the time that Jared would be home to watch Makayla while i kept up my clientel. Since Jareds job losses, he has been working two jobs one taking up most of the day on saturdays and the other really never working with my tuesday night plans although i continue to work those same hours i just have to balance everything perfectly so i can. I try my hardest to schedule the off day random hair appointment when Makayla is sleeping so that i can be as professional as possible and not take any time away from her. When this lady first explained everything to me i was thinking i can do that a couple days a week and Makayla will be right there and i can constantly check on her. Now I'd be solely doing this for the money, Jareds paychecks have been pathetic (honesty, i must be honest) and really he is not getting enough hours or pay to even make close to what our financial demands are (and this is totally not considering anything that doesn't have a due date such as groceries, clothes, gasoline) (and we stand in need of some of those things). By many miracles we have made it this far but i seriously am worried about the summer. So from all this you can easily say well Zjani get another job that sounds like the best thing for you guys right now. But tonight I am having a hard time making that decision, and its not because i hate the idea of work i'm a very hard worker even when i'm not employed, its because even though Makayla would be in the next room i still wouldn't be the one there for her, and that is so very important for me. I dont like taking her to the daycare at the gym, i cant explain to her that i will be back shortly yet. I couldn't work past the end of November so that kinda makes me not very reliable but i really dont want a permanent position. It would be whatever schedule i please and i wouldn't want to work more than 3 days a week cuz that puts me at 5 working days, not including the night cleaning. What i really want to say is Jared get a third job this isnt cutting it, i dont care if you work for burger king, you provide for this family if you have to work night and day and hopefully something good will come along and this wont have to be such a long burden to bare. I'm not sure what is fair. Putting Makayla in the care of others for an 8 hr shift 3 times a week, turning everything that was smooth and stable into something that is less than ideal. Or having Jared freak'n pick up the slack. both ways i'm kinda the bad guy. The really bad thing is that it is down in bountiful, that is an hrs ride, Its in no way convienent to where i live, if i work till 5 i'll get home at six and then make and eat dinner at seven then 8 its her bed time, So i would have one quality hour with her... maybe two if she stays up till 9. Am I so crazy to just want to press through the worst keeping my time with my little one?
(ps sorry about the spelling errors my spell check wouldn't work)
This is the Bargain buy i got at savers on Friday, we went looking for shorts for Makayla and while we were passing the toy section she decided that she liked sitting on this Fire truck. I ended up pulling her around backward thru the store on the fire truck and since it was only a 1.99 i figured if anything it would keep her busy for the day. When we got home i found out there was a whole bunch of hotwheel cars in the seat of the Fire truck so we really got a bargain. Anyway it makes noise and she loves it and i know she looks like a wild lady in these pictures, were in the process of growing out her bangs and they are always in her eyes lately.
