Sunday, May 31, 2009

Fire Truck

This is the Bargain buy i got at savers on Friday, we went looking for shorts for Makayla and while we were passing the toy section she decided that she liked sitting on this Fire truck. I ended up pulling her around backward thru the store on the fire truck and since it was only a 1.99 i figured if anything it would keep her busy for the day. When we got home i found out there was a whole bunch of hotwheel cars in the seat of the Fire truck so we really got a bargain. Anyway it makes noise and she loves it and i know she looks like a wild lady in these pictures, were in the process of growing out her bangs and they are always in her eyes lately.


Wednesday, May 27, 2009

Our little one on the way

So this weekend i will be 14 weeks pregnant and that pretty much puts me in the clear as far as normal miscarriages go, and because i'm alot like my mom i keep my pregnancies mostly to myself until around this time. As far as due dates go i'm due November 28th which is a day after Jared's birthday so he is excited to possibly have a birthday buddy. Today i have another Dr's appointment so i'm excited about it, but i'm also worried about taking Makayla with me, because Jared is working so she is pretty bad at not being curious and getting into stuff.. But i'm sure we'll survive. This new baby will be 9 months old when my little brother gets back from his mission so that is kinda crazy. Zachary and all the boys in my family think i'm having a boy, he even told me in an e-mail that he will be looking for something cool to send to "him" from Africa. I'm not going to be running the Ragnar which makes me really sad, but they did add more miles to each leg of the run so it would have been a harder thing to do, plus it is going to be hot during the day runs and i have to be careful to not get overheated. Oh well next year. So this is the first ultrasound picture i got and i probably wont be getting more for awhile but i do get a DVD of the ultrasound each time i go in.

Friday, May 22, 2009

its been awhile

so i did type out a whole post and then it decieded to not save it and i didn't care to write it again so that is why it is taking me so long to post anything. i dont have much good news its been an off week for me and jared, were just not getting along. It doesn't help that i'm crazy emotional :) but maybe next week will be better. I have to give a talk in sacrament meeting on fasting, and i also am teaching yw too this sunday, so i've got alot to prepare. I'm hoping that everyone will have plans this weekend and the church will be empty when i give my talk. We usually go camping on Memorial day weekend and i'm really kinda sad that i'm not, although i may throw up the tent in the back yard this weekend anyway and pretend like i'm camping. I wish i had a firepit then it would seem like the real thing only with flushing toilets and a fridge. I'm no longer working in bountiful, the second day not a soul came in and i pretty much decieded this was not worth our time. I'm rather happy about not being there though, my house really went to pot and so did my mood the days that i worked. (i know i totally sound like such a baby but its the honest truth). I've been reading pride and prejuduce, I really like Mr. Darcy and besides all the big words i understand it pretty well :). well thats my brief update!

Wednesday, May 13, 2009

My first day at the bountiful Salon

So I went down and visited the salon before i agreed to work there, when i got there it was closed so i had no idea how busy they are generally. So like i said 2 posts ago there was supposidly a daycare attached to the salon, ya no such thing, just a room in the back with a couple of toys in it, no daycare workers just a dora the explorer kitchen that has been crayola'd to death. The owners daughter sat me down and talked with me about my plans with the salon and i told her i would be helping this lady for about a month and she said okay, if you need to bring your little girl you can because i bring mine and she just plays in this room. So now i kinda feel okay about watching Makayla and working because then i am still raising my child. I was also told that they have been having to turn clients away because they dont have enough stylists, which translates to busy... well after working i found out that they actually have had the salon closed for 8 months and the owner was thrilled when i did just one haircut, JUST ONE, by the end of the day i did 4 and thats when the news was spilled to me that they actually haven't been open for 8 months. now if you do the math i made less then minimum wage today but that isn't the worst part of the day for me. about 11:30 the owner said i'm gonna take the kids over to my house and feed them some spagetti and let you guys work in case you get busy, I wanted to have a break down, number one i dont know you lady, number 2 i was told i could watch my child here, number 3 i have no desire to let my kid go with a stranger for 5 hours that doesn't speak her language, either one. So being the complete bad mom that i am, i let her take my baby all day and i wanted to sob. After telling the lady i work with to translate to the salon owner that if Makayla has any problems at all give me a call and i will pick her up, i find out at just about the end of the day that this lady is concerned about Makayla because she was sad, wanted her mom and wouldn't eat anything the whole time, but i didn't get a call!!! So it was the worst day ever. And when i go back tomorrow my baby will stay with me at the salon and if anyone has a problem they can just take a hike or we will.

The Zoo

Makayla and I went to the Zoo on Monday with My mom and Dawson and a friend of dawson, his mom took some pictures for us. The one above is somthing i'm gonna send to my brother cuz he's in Africa right now, Cheesy but he'll like it.
I have an awsome face in this one
at first Makayla was afraid of the gorilla statue :)

Friday, May 8, 2009

Big Choices

So today i was met with a proposition from a lady in my ward. There is a Salon in Bountiful that really needs stylists otherwise it will have to close its doors. This particular salon also has a daycare attached to it. Curently my own schedule is that I work from my home salon tuesday nights and Saturday Days, this used to be during the time that Jared would be home to watch Makayla while i kept up my clientel. Since Jareds job losses, he has been working two jobs one taking up most of the day on saturdays and the other really never working with my tuesday night plans although i continue to work those same hours i just have to balance everything perfectly so i can. I try my hardest to schedule the off day random hair appointment when Makayla is sleeping so that i can be as professional as possible and not take any time away from her. When this lady first explained everything to me i was thinking i can do that a couple days a week and Makayla will be right there and i can constantly check on her. Now I'd be solely doing this for the money, Jareds paychecks have been pathetic (honesty, i must be honest) and really he is not getting enough hours or pay to even make close to what our financial demands are (and this is totally not considering anything that doesn't have a due date such as groceries, clothes, gasoline) (and we stand in need of some of those things). By many miracles we have made it this far but i seriously am worried about the summer. So from all this you can easily say well Zjani get another job that sounds like the best thing for you guys right now. But tonight I am having a hard time making that decision, and its not because i hate the idea of work i'm a very hard worker even when i'm not employed, its because even though Makayla would be in the next room i still wouldn't be the one there for her, and that is so very important for me. I dont like taking her to the daycare at the gym, i cant explain to her that i will be back shortly yet. I couldn't work past the end of November so that kinda makes me not very reliable but i really dont want a permanent position. It would be whatever schedule i please and i wouldn't want to work more than 3 days a week cuz that puts me at 5 working days, not including the night cleaning. What i really want to say is Jared get a third job this isnt cutting it, i dont care if you work for burger king, you provide for this family if you have to work night and day and hopefully something good will come along and this wont have to be such a long burden to bare. I'm not sure what is fair. Putting Makayla in the care of others for an 8 hr shift 3 times a week, turning everything that was smooth and stable into something that is less than ideal. Or having Jared freak'n pick up the slack. both ways i'm kinda the bad guy. The really bad thing is that it is down in bountiful, that is an hrs ride, Its in no way convienent to where i live, if i work till 5 i'll get home at six and then make and eat dinner at seven then 8 its her bed time, So i would have one quality hour with her... maybe two if she stays up till 9. Am I so crazy to just want to press through the worst keeping my time with my little one?
(ps sorry about the spelling errors my spell check wouldn't work)